[ goodbye, my ah ma.. ]
Monday, 15 September 2008( 5:47 pm )
my ah ma passed away last night in a struggle against multiple mild illnesses. i suppose the age caught up with her and the illnesses wore her out even more. hai, rest in peace ah ma.. leave the happiness moments behind and take the bad memories along with you..
[ADDED]
while folding the paper to be burn for my ah ma, i sat with my 3 cousins in a table and fold those papers with them. they are my 3rd uncle's daughters (fyi: my dad is the eldest child). they really know how to crap with each other and the way their conversate with each others reflects how close their bonds are. seriously i really envy them. able to communicate easily with each other and talk about all sorts of topics.
when i compare theirs with how close my siblings and i (fyi: im the youngest amongst the 4 siblings) bond around, i felt so ashamed. 1st, i hate my brother for all those insults he freely hurled around and the way he wants me to do the way he wanted. if i don do the way he wants, he would give a dishearten face and gave unnecessary comments without thinking how i would feel listening to what he said. in short, he is not the brother i would consider consulting for advices or listening to his advices either. i don conversate much with my 3rd sister. becox i find her always having mood swings which i cant stand it. as for my elder sister, she is more of a parental role in my life. anything important i would usually tell her and ask for advice. hai, im so frustrated with the lack of siblings' bonding.
tsk tsk..