[ Sending the star to the Heaven.. ]
Sunday, 15 June 2008( 11:01 pm )
today's ordeal is to emotional. having to see you again is painful. accompany you for the very last time is painful. having seen you sent to be cremated makes things even worst; acting strong didnt work and the tears just fell. then came my sensation of numbness that accelerated to the point that it was nearly the same i had felt it during the airplane back from Australia when all is over.
the numbness just ran amok when i saw David and Rui Xiang on the Chinese newspaper. i simply cant accept that someone close to me just left again; my partner bass player. i wasn't able to clam myself well enough alas the numbness got bad. hands went stiff and cold, as what others have said when they touched me. i have to be constantly told and motivate for a period of time until i start to get my sense of touch back.
any part can go numb but not my chest. once it goes numb, i cant breathe. it numbness did comes and goes around my chest region and that was a close encounter.
and a couple more hours im gone to surrender my pink ic..
im going off with a heavy heart..
hope elizebeth knows about it..
i bid you farewell, Rui Xiang..